Tuesday, 30 August 2011

I'm Moving

Attention, attention! I have had a home on the World Wide Web here for seven years now. But I'm shifting. This blog will not be closed. It has a history I want to remember.

My new home is at: a-man-dah.tumblr.com. If you're still interested in life and my take on it, come on over. Fare thee well, beloved blog! Thy services have been much valued and thou will be kindly preserved at this very place.

Friday, 27 May 2011

There's no guarantee. In fact, there never was. We made our promises and we made our pacts. And if I were to remember correctly, I said forever. Funny how we say things that we mean at the time, but which lose that very meaning over time itself. My only explanation, my only excuse is that I was being honest. It was the truth. For what it's worth, I promise you, at that time, I meant it.

Sunday, 22 May 2011


Monday, 16 May 2011

... And We Play Our True Selves The Worst

Him: "Everyone is designed to fall apart."

Me: "So scream, vent, curse. Do what you're designed to do. It's OK to fall apart. 'Cause I'm here."

Shakespeare wrote, "All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players." Oh, how true. We're all top-notch actors. Each day, with a keen sense of familiarity and skills honed by years of routine, we put on masks. All at once comfortable and effortless. They shield who we really are or they merely let us cover up the fact that we don't know who we really are. Either way, we all deserve an Academy Award at best for being such adroit purveyors of lies.

You meet people everyday - strangers, acquaintances, friends. You recognize faces. You observe patterns. You overhear conversations. So often what you see are smiles, laughter, jokes. They're all signs of being OK. But someone could be standing right next to you or heck, could even be talking to you and yet you haven't a single inkling that they're in the process of falling apart, losing themselves, breaking down.

Why hide it? If we are all one and the same, there is no reason to pretend. Strange how we, of our own volition, subject ourselves to emotional atrophy. Do you think it makes you look stronger? No, it makes your pain last longer. But really, why hide it? And I'm not saying that you should let your emotions loose on the people around you. 'Cause quite frankly, not everyone cares. What I'm saying is that you're clever enough to differentiate between who cares and who doesn't. Know that the world is filled with as many pretenders as you, but in spite of that, life is not as pretentious and hopeless as you may think 'cause in the majority of all that, there remains a minority in your life that is true and real.

Just as my answer was, you can do what you're designed to do and fall apart in front of me. I know how it feels. I can understand what you're saying. I can relate to what you're going through. So just handle it the way you know best. If it's crying, cry. If it's being silent, shut up. If it's cursing, go wild. If it's rambling, don't stop. 'Cause I'm here. But I'm only here for awhile. I'll be gone soon, just like the many people that have come and gone in your life. But right now, for this uncertain amount of time, I'm here. You could very well say the same to me. And I know that. We all know that. We all know that the people we love now probably aren't always gonna be around. In the end, just as we were when we first came into this world, so will we be on our own. (But of course, save for One. Hehe.) So let's not take them for granted. Use them and exploit them - in the purest, most well-intentioned sense of the word. :)  

All the world's a stage and all the men and women merely players
They have their exits and their entrances
And one man in his time plays many parts
Last scene of all
That ends this strange eventful history
Is second childishness and mere oblivion
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything
- William Shakespeare

Tuesday, 10 May 2011

I wish. Sky, please open up and pour down. Give me my favourite weather.

Friday, 6 May 2011

There is a moment when you look at that one person and you say to yourself, "Oh, there you are. I've been looking for you forever." And all along, he was right there, right here. It just took some time for you to look through those very same eyes but this time, see something different.

Thursday, 5 May 2011

After tonight, who knows where we'll be tomorrow?
What if we're never here again?
After tonight, this will be a lifetime ago
So let's stay up until the sky bleeds red
'Cause this time is ours
-  "Ours" by The Bravery