"Sometimes the beauty is in the attempt.
We gave it everything we could,
but it just didn't work out."

Everytime I hear his voice, I fall in love with him all over again.

(Sigh. Two days after the AI finale and I'm still mourning his loss T_T)

I feel numb.

I feel empty.

I feel tired.

I feel burnt out.

I feel pain.

I feel scared.

I feel worried.

I feel confused.

I feel lost.

I feel sad.

I feel alone.

I don't want to have to try to make it show.

I don't want to have to pretend.

I don't want to break down inside anymore.

I don't want to drown in despair.

I don't want to face this on my own.

I want to fall and know that someone will catch me.

I want to scream and know that someone will hear me.

I want to try and know that if I fail, someone will pick me up and keep me going.

I want to run and know that I won't be running alone.

I want to stop and know that I won't be left behind.

I want it all to slow down because time is slipping through my fingertips.

I want to find out what's wrong with me so I can fix it.

I want to be able to not lie when I say "I'm OK".

I want to close my eyes, take a deep breath and wish all the pain away.

I want to smile and mean it.

I want to be happy again.

I need You so much closer.